I don't know what I am doing

And that's okay...

Beginnings are hard.

This is my first blog / newsletter. I do not think I have ever written anything and posted it on the internet like this but I guess there is a first time for everything. Think of this post as a pilot for what I hope is going to be a great TV show.

I am writing this of a template that Substack have given to me, so if the paragraphs sound robotic and like a personal statement, that is why. I am also going to leave the headings in because I think it is funny lol.

Why this, why now

So, apparently I am meant to tell my readers why I am ‘launching this space’. My answer to that is simple. Every night, I have been instructed by my mentor (and gurus online) to journal before I go to bed, in order to get all of the important lessons and thought off of my chest before sleep.

I have been doing this for just over a month now and I absolutely love writing. I think it is a practice that can and would significantly benefit anyone who does it. It’s great when you have had a good day and even better when your day hasn’t gone quite to plan.

Often I will find myself writing something in my journal and I think “fuck, this is kind of good”. So, I have decided that even if one person finds something I write on here useful, it will be worth it. Since I am going to find this useful, my goal has been achieved already.

What kind of community are you looking to build here

‘What kind of space will this be?’ Substack asked me. Well, building a community is something that I would love to do and it would be a lovely side effect of me writing this for myself. What I really want to do is just be authentic and honest. One of the first books I read having not picked up a book out of choice in about 7 years was Jordan Peterson’s ‘12 Rules for Life’. One of the rules in that book was ‘tell the truth, or at least don’t lie’.

After reading that, I began to realise that the entirety of my teenage years consisted of me telling or living a lie. I felt like I had not been my true self ever, and that this was the reason for a lot of my frustration. So, after reading that I decided that the truth would set me free. I finished that book about 10 months ago and since then, I have been at peace with just telling the truth and being myself. So far, it’s going well. So that is your answer, Substack prompters. I want to build an authentic and honest community.

Be specific

Okay so, if you love clarity then this may not be the substack for you. I have no idea how Substack even works, I just saw Chris Williamson talk about it on a Q&A and thought it was worth a try. Turns out it’s quite complicated, so in terms of a posting schedule, I am going to post SOMETHING every day. I didn’t know you could make people pay for this! How mad.

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Here’s your photo. That’s Charlotte (my girlfriend) and that is me writing this right now. I didn’t have a photo, so we took one!

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